September 28, 2005
A better day?
Thanks for the hugs and good advise,friends!
But I still don't feel better (or do I??).Relaxation?I have no idea what that is,I don't think it ever came up in my genes.Massage.....I get one every night from Jim,which is AWESOME....for the time being.But then its morning again and the same ole BLAH is back.Yuck.
Babysit.....one can only wish.The only time we ever had it was when cousin end his then wife gave us a certificate for babysit and dinner for our...hmm....lets see.....5th anniversary.Even then I could not relax,was worried of what might happen to the kids (or what the kids might do to THEM I should say).
Bubblebath......that sounds awesome!!I LOVE that......but my tub is too damn short for me!!!(I am NOT kidding here!)LOL
So after 10 minutes the neck and back pain overrule.
And for some reason,no matter what I try or do.....my family does not seem to be able to leave me the hell alone.
Oh and when they do.....well,then I miss them.DOH!Yeah,thats me.....its all MY fault.I guess I love the life I have one way or another.
I just have the BLAHS!!
Every day is the same,over and over again.Except for Wednesdays and every other Friday.But I guess in the long run that blends into the every day blah as well.Yaaaaaawn......BORING!
Technically of course,I could get a job,put my kids into the hands of the government,pay my ass off for daycare for the once that are not at school age and surrender my paycheck to some daycare center every week.Put up with some asshole boss or people I have to serve,pay the marriage penalty,owe even more then I get paid and eventually get fired for not shutting up.Oh even better.....and THEN come home to these people here (mostly the little folk) who then in return would kick my ass for not spending enough time with them.Trust me.....they are LIKE that,they can not even stand it when I go to the store alone or dare to leave them somewhere for 5 minutes out of sight!
Well,then again,I am not complaining about my life,it does not suck but it sucks.In the meantime I am going to allow myself the luxury of some
here and there and a few 
most nights as well as being the 
of the 
.
They don't fuck with me here.....they know better.HEHEHE
BUT......I STILL want a vacation with my hubby.....ALONE........just him and me and NO damn kids.So WHO wants them?????????????We offer belts,food and hell....even health and dental benefits while we are at it.Just don't ask us to return for a snotty noose,boo-boo or some crap like that.
Ok....Nitequil is kicking in (I really did have some kind of flu or so and so did Jim).......I better go hit the hay!!
A few days with just us alone...man, I think I'd have a stroke I'd be so happy.
We need a (slightly delayed) honeymoon, Baby.
Posted by: Jim at September 28, 2005 06:04 AM